You’re right, I’m not who I used to be. I believe in different things now. The things we used to believe together. I no longer do the things I used to do. The things that made you feel comfortable. The things we did together.
I don’t drink.
I don’t go to bars or clubs.
I don’t sleep with guys.
I don’t flirt or seduce.
I don’t use foul language.
I rarely listen to secular music.
I’m not a feminist anymore.
I believe in traditional marriage.
I don’t try to be seen.
I don’t try to intimidate.
I don’t put my ego first.
I’m a patriot but I pledge allegiance to Jesus.
I don’t believe the color of my skin entitles me or makes me a victim.
And I was never a democrat anyway.
There’s plenty more I can’t articulate at this moment.
I cashed in all my chips and ended up with zero. These things bankrupted my spirit. As I moved closer to God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit I could no longer hold on to those things. They no longer served any purpose because they are not based on anything long withstanding.
I admit, perhaps I never made it clear in years past of what I did stand for. Though in my defense, I never claimed to be For some of those things; my only fault-remaining silent in my disagreement.
I gave up those things willingly and freely. I’ve never felt and thought more clearly. I’m doing great.
I am still Me. Unapologetic and Resolute.
When you probably roll your eyes at the sight of my name and the things I stand for now, know that I’m fine with whatever reaction you have. The disagreements that permeate in your bones, you’re allowed to have. But know this –
It was you that shut me out.
So I continue on, always available for non-spontaneous coffee dates, froyo meet-ups and other such treats.